Ever had that feeling where you wonder where you’re going with life? I have, often to be honest. Come august, a new chapter of my life will begin. Am I looking forward to it? Nope. That’s, with the current institution that I’m supposed to enter. I cant see myself happy in there. I cant see myself doing anything related to it in the near future or ever. I know I shldnt just condemn myself and not give things a chance. But the thought of having to carry another loan just to let me study seems almost stupid and honestly, another burden on me and my parents’ shoulders. 5 years to pay off the loan if I really enter UOL. Do I want this, given my family’s current financial standing. It means I’ll have to scrimp even more than usual and I’ll still be paying it off when I start working also. I’m praying like mad everyday that nie will send me the offer letter for the dip soon. I really want this so badly, I’ll give anything up in exchange for it. But the whole month of june seems to be passing day by day and there’s no news. Even though mummy was the one who encouraged me to apply for sim in the beginning, I think she’s regretting it alrdy. But what to do, I’ve nowhere else to go. I really wanna the dip, so many ppl apply for nie because they’ve nowhere else to go, where their grades are neither here nor there to do the really popular courses. I really want this. And those ppl are taking up my spot. Sighs. What else can I do besides pray and pray really hard that my offer letter will come soon.
bows head and prays. *deep breath*
the person up there, I know you can hear me and you can see what I’m going through. Can you pls shower some sort of miracle or blessing on me so that my offer letter will come quickly. Plsssssss.